diagonistic

I called out of work today because i felt so sick and nauseated this morning that i had to lay in my car for a while before driving home. i took 2 extra strength tylenol before going to bed but i woke up with the headache (much better than before) and nausea. i really wanted to work this 3 day weekend simply for the fact that it would be a "full weekend pay" and also i'm saving my sick time for later. Could i ran around at work for 5 hours nonstop this evening? i don't think so. i've been sitting here and already the headache is starting to worsen.

On the bright side, i read over the verbal mastery book and i feel it helped me with the 4 practice passages i did this evening. i think it's better than the painless reading comprehension in that it's more curtailed to the college person who doesn't have time to look up too much words in a dictionary and need to know the need-to stuff. although painless reading has the same thing in it. thing is i did see some improvement today.

On a more gloomy note, i finally mustered the courage to take the kaplan diagnostic and i had a 53%. I did great in verbal, i seem to always to great in kaplans verbal but i heard they're a lot more easier than the real things so i'm not too excited. Bio had stuff on genetics and stuff that made me go HUH? and ochem had stuff on aromatics. Since i didn't read the chapter on aromatics, i bombed that part. My stereochemistry is solid so that's reassuring. Without going into details, let's just say i bombed the ps section. My brain is too tired to microanalyze the results to i'll do that later. Thaat said, i need to review hit the books because i've not been able to do any studing the last 2 days. i have a FL coming up and the recent diagnostic results is equally pathetic and scary. The only thing about the diagnostic is that it doesn't give you a raw score.
God, the more the day draws near, the more i feel i need a miracle greater than heaven and earth. Part of me feels like dump this, take the GRE and refocus in the fall. God knows i've invested soo much time, soo much energy and the opportunity costs is too enormous to just give up. Plus, i'm not a quitter. If it's bad on the day, i guess i can void or retake. Plus, who's to say i'll have the time in fall to invest in this when i've classes, work with lots of competencies and what nots to do.
So all things considered, this is my one good chance to hit it and hit it hard. I'm going to have stop slacking, and study hard.