3/15 post

I have to correct the post from 3/15. I'm not like House when i can't find my own happiness. I'm happy with my life. I think i'm selfish when it comes to anything getting in the way of me becoming who i want to be. or should i say anything i think is getting in the way. Mostly relationships. I think they're a distraction. I like to put them in the back burner. Or just stay out of it. Or something that doesn't require me to give any part of me. i feel i don't have the time to give or is it that i don't want to give?

Men aren't high on my trust list. I'm not even sure if they're on it and i see it as an investment. Would i rather invest myself and time in a relationship? or would i put that into my personal ambitions? The answer is obvious

I find relationships a big distraction. Why this crazy post? I'm getting involved with someone and somehow i want to tell the person, let's put this on the backburner till june. It's not like this person is ready to settle down to begin with. I know because he said so. I'm an emotional mess inside. I still don't know why i am all messed. The crazy thing is that its someone i never thought i'd be with.