Back to Reality

I feel fine. I'm over stuff, i think. Work last night was amazing. 4 patients, not much to do. Thank God because that was a miracle.

I have gotten my head together. Sad news is i blew an entire month on nothing. Good news is I'm back to myself and i can't wait to hit the books.
From the look of things, i may need to push the exam back, Again! That part is a little depressing.
Oh well, everything has it's price and that includes foolishness.

Confessions of a shopaholic

First of all, a moment of silence for my kindle. Got to city line last night only to find it dead. It will be dearly miss. That said, i just called amazon when i got home today and they're sending a replacement. Should get here by tomorrow.

That said, i have to say there's something about center city philly that makes me feel at home and just puts my fears to rest. That's something about going to Daffy's that excites me. Now i shop and i have to say i've blown more than fifteen hundred shopping this past couple of weeks. I don't get as thrilled walking into a shop in MD as i do when i walk into one in philly or jersey. Not sure what exactly it is.

Either way, I'm soo glad i went out of town. Got up yesterday, laid in bed for 5 hours and finally decided rain or shine i was going to go. They'd predicted rain and the funny thing is at no point did i experience rainfall. it may have poured while i was Daffy's but it was dry when i came out. Thing is i feel better. Yesterday when i was driving up i thought 'it hurts. it cuts like a knife.' I tear up know just thinking about it but i think i'm getting over it. Spent the major part of yesterday morning reading several pothead boyfriend stories and the general consensus is to ran.

Being up north helped to take my mind of things. And it made me realize that as much as it hurts, it's really for the best. i'm actually wondering if it's love. I think it just pains me that i can't be with someone i thought i wanted to be with. I'll miss certain things. In reality, i need to focus. Just heard on Castle that if you wanna get to the top, you can't take anyone with you. Back to old times i guess. Back to studying for the exam.

Lord, i'm a pathetic Shopaholic that needs you. I need a savior.

Another spree

Made another purchase from VS. last one prior was on the 22nd or so. Anyway, i think this is it. 3 pants and a sweater.

I also got my ray-ban glasses yesterday. $140 bucks worth of plastic and a screw is loose and the blue doesn't look so hot on me. i'm thinking of returning it.

Craziest spend ever.

I spent $140.59 on a pair of ray-bans aviator sunglasses. I think i've hit rock bottom!

I also spent $126.xx at victoria's secret. I need a life.

Self-control

What's the difference between being a shopaholic and a regular shopper? right now, my vision is blurred and i'm not objective. But, i just left Victoria's secret without buying a thing. i'd just spent $114+ there earlier and was on the verge of spending $116 more. Can i afford it? Yes. Do i need it? No. Why am i buying when i've a closet full of stuff i don't even wear? i'm a shopaholic and I can't help it. Pathetic? Very.

Lord I need big help. I feel like i need the stuff though.

amazon

"Please note that the price of The Burglar Who Traded Ted Williams (Bernie Rhodenbarr Mysteries) has increased from $3.76 to $200.00 since you placed it in your Shopping Cart. Items in your cart will always reflect the most recent price displayed on their product detail pages. "

Amazon always updates me with price changes with items in my cart and among the long list of things i see, i see this. what the ???

Relapsing

I made a couple purchases at my favorite retailer for shoes black friday week. then purchased another last week and today i made 4 purchases, 3 shoes and a handbag. What happened to the recovering shopaholic i knew.

The deal now is no more shoe purchases till next year. Since I didn't get time to open the box for the brown skechers boots, i'm starting to think it wouldn't be too much of a bad idea to have UPS pick it up and return it. That's something worth considering.

Must i say that i purchased all shoes and bags today at 60% off with an additional 30% off. So in essence, i purchased hundred dollar shape-ups for less than 28 bucks. In my defense, i made the purchase because the last pair of skechers i bought during the black friday sale, i paid $37.60 and i considered that a very good deal. These are 10 bucks less. The rampage bag was something i'd been eyeing for a long time, and at that discount, i just couldn't pass it up. The last shoe i purchased was a 5" lauren jones pump, would pass for a louboutin, but anyway, by adding it to the other 3 items, it came out about 24 bucks. That shoe actually costs about 110. I ended up paying 63 bucks with my card because i had a gift card balance.

I was planning on using the gift card balance for those traciela books but it turns out powerscore has the same thing for $22. I'm waiting for another gift card from chase and God help me use it for the powerscore book and nothing else.

The worst part of today, i was supposed to finish up kinematics and equilibrium. What did i do? nada. I did finish up supporting details in my reading lab.

It's december, hospitals experience low census during this time and i think with all the extra free time i'll get, i need to chanel that to finishing the TPR books instead of spending it shopping. Heaven knows i've no room for more shoes. Plus, i'm earning less, too.

Shameful encounter

So i'm back from work, instead of going straight to bed, i make breakfast and watch psych. When that's done, i start to surf aimlessly and somehow i check chase's website. I see 2 charges for $12.71 from target. Without thinking further, i say to myself "i've been charged twice for the crockpot and mixer." So I leap out of bed and drive straight to target. Mind you it's almost 11am.

I get to target and tell the poor young fellow i've been charged twice. He talks to someone over the phone but the person tells him he can't find the transaction. I tell the fellow i also want to exchange the slow cooker since the bottom is scratched. I keep waiting, grab the new cooker, come back and keep waiting.

So i get impatient, very impatient. And start telling the guy it would take 30seconds to clear this up with chase instead of waiting hours. Then i ask if the person we're waiting for is coming. No response. Then i start pacing, impatiently. Then i tell the guy, to just do the exchange i'll go through chase. At this point i'm irrate because i've been waiting for forever and talking loudly, not loud as in yelling but... Anyway, i still wait and i'm more irrate because the guy seems to be doing other stuff and i feel like i'm being ignored. So he tells me i bought i curling iron and i go "i didn't buy a curling iron! Can you pull the receipts instead of having me stand here. i have slept since yesterday." Not in that exact order but i did say those things at different points.

For a second, I pause to think and ask myself, did i purchase anything else from target besides the pantene for $4 and the black friday deal? It starts to dawn on me that i may have purchased the kinky curly that day. To avoid disgrace,i tell the poor fella to check the cooker out and that i'll leave right away, i can't wait any longer. Guy ignores me still, goes about his business while i stand and wait. Then when the person finally shows up, he's pulled the receipts and tells me the two $12.71 charges aren't for the same thing. Lo and behold, i did buy the kinky curler knot today that same afternoon and i believe i paid $11.99 for it which also adds to $12.71 with tax, just like the crockpot and mixer. To conceal my embarassment,which i didn't show, i just kept on acting angry, got the exchange for the cooker and stormed off.

Shame on me! I kept saying to myself how much shame i feel and how guilty i feel for my awful, awful, disgusting behavior. I totally regret the behavior and if there's anything beyond shame, it's exactly what i feel. I made someone's workday misreable as a result of my stupid ignorance and impatience. I did not take a second to think when i saw the transaction online. All i did was jump out of bed and head out. And then i went to the store and prolly made the poor fellow feel bad although as i type right now, i feel like he has my attitude of tuning out whinny patients because he didn't seem to care that much and only seemed to not wait to get rid of me.

Nevertheless, a little patience would have benefited me. Taking a 2nd look would have saved me the gas, time and energy of driving to the store as well as the shame. A nicer attitude and i would've been a pleasant person to deal with and while my impatience could be due to the fact that i wanted to run there and run back quickly to sleep, maybe i shouldn't do stuff like this on no sleep, just so i don't appear rude. I kept apologizing to God all the way home and was appalled at my shamelessness. Had i been pleasant and calm, i could've easily admitted my fault and apologized. I've seen people do that when they laugh and say "my bad, i thought it was such and such..."

Lesson learned is be pleasant always even if you think those you're dealing with have wronged you and you are in the right. Be patient with others and be considerate of others. Lord i've been in situations where i feel patients/+ their families were impatient or inconsiderate and i found that very hard, stressful and just annoying to deal with. And here i am being an awful customer. Yes, the guy may have taken forever, the poor fellow was prolly ignoring me to deal with me but that didn't mean i had to act all annoying and irrate.

Lord, please help me to be pleasant and patient always when dealing with my fellow humans. And please forgive me and i hope the poor fellow finds it in his heart to forgive me. That said, it's gonna take me a while to set foot in this target. I know the last time i went there was over a year ago and after this annoying behavior that even i wouldn't put up with, Christe eleison.

Black Friday

I've been shopping at walmart a lot the last 6 or so months. i barely shop at target. i'll say 2x. the first cuz i was coming from work and needed to buy hot cocoa but didn't want to drive further down to walmart. The 2nd time was because i was so sick and needed the theraflu badly.

I saw the black friday ad for target and decided i'll go get the $3 toaster and return the one at walmart. I also planned on getting the $3 hand mixer. When i got there around a little close to 7am, the $3 deals were gone. One of the target sales associate mentioned people took 6 of them at time and they later found them in the aisles so they're bound to come back on the shelves. i walked out after 7:30 with just a pantene conditioner in hand.
I came home, looked online and decided to go to walmart after seeing their deals.walmart had a similar deal as target $3 deal but for $2.97 (the rival chopper, slow cooker and hand mixer). Target actually had the chopper, toaster and chopper for $3.
Anyway,i got to walmart and found the hamilton beach slow cooker for 14.88, savings of $1.12. It was a 5 quart cooker but maybe they were out of the $9.97 5qt one they'd advertised for. Their rival toaster was $6.36, down from $6.54. I actually purchased it for $6.54 a week ago and the difference was insignifcant so i didn't see the need to buy it and return with my other receipt. I walked out of walmart with nothing in hand. To me, walmart deals were no deals.

In the end, i walked out of target with a $3 mixer and a $8.99 hamilton beach slow cooker. Total was $12.97, tax included. Last month, i was looking for a slow and the best i found at walgreens was $14.99 but i had to pay $19.99 and send in for a $5 rebate which is something i tend to forget to do so i gave up. From where i stand, i got what i wanted for a really good price.

Bless me Father for i've sinned....

I just spent $115 at victoria's secret online store after spending more money at their store in the mall today. Awful. I feel like an alcoholic or drug addict that's relapsed. Technically, i should feel like one cuz i'm used to be a shopaholic. I spent so much money at Victoria's secret last year, it's a SIN! I mean from the bra tops to the dresses to the pants. So last year, i had them unsubscribed me from their catalogs, i stopped their emails and cut off all contact with them.
But, i purchased today because i need pants. I like their pants. They're colorful, different, not like regular pants. I actually went there to shop for underpants but then i remembered i needed work pants to wear to the clinic. Then i saw a bra and then a top, and then an oversized top. Honestly, if i didn't purchased that on-sale $25 oversized top, i'd have purchased one at saks for $84. So here's to saving! Yes, i'm justifying but the fact of the matter is, this is all my summer shopping. Heck, i can't fit into some of the summer clothes i purchased last year and i never wore them, some i only wore twice. I've soo many clothes and i've a bunch in a bin i need to donate. i really don't need any more clothes. All the closets here, my huge walk-in, dresser and whatever i have, closet outside, my shoe closet (yes, i've a closet that's just stacked with shoes.)

So, here's a blog reminder to self that this is my summer shopping. I think i've spent 200 bucks if i add the 5in heels i got on amazon (may i say those are so hawt!!). Here's to saving.