moving

It hurts and there's been tears. But i've had time to think it through and if i'm being blown off for it now, then the best thing I can say to me is 'ran'. I've learned in life that loving someone doesn't necessitate the need to be with them. Sometimes it does but i think love just ain't enough. I'm going to need time to move on and feel strong. But i've had all the time to think it through and i know for certainty that it's best for me to walk out now.

I've been so happy the last few weeks. I've been, what Grace calls it, 'blooming'. It's been showing on my face and everyone tells me. But who needs a heart when a heart can be broken? Breaking up is never easy but i have to go...knowing me, knowing him, it's the best i can do.

what am i doing today? My little girl turned 1 and i missed it. I've been so distracted to call up and check on her so i think i'll go shopping and stop by. So long as the rain doesn't come down this morning. I don't think i've got the money to waste shopping considering all the hefty purchases i made last month but then again, i may be saving $200+ on international calls this month so i think i can afford to go to Daffys and try on some clothes. And i'll also make extra on this weeks paycheck. I don't call it shopping, I call it therapy. Funny thing is i've never needed to get over anyone because well, i've never cared to give a heart. This time, i did